Or, maybe the other way around. It's been six long months since I've had any formality to my life. What I mean is that without employment, every day is open to my interpretation. Do I want to be productive or just screw off. Jump out of bed, make coffee, hit the internet, blog, search, read, whatever... Should I feel guilty? Hell no. Sometimes I get inspiration and explore new paths to make me rich and well known. But mostly, I pretend I'm working to soothe my psyche. ( New project: open a workshop on "How to survive on $1640.00 a month") I find myself getting way too serious. Life's about having fun. Believe me that's work in itself! Yesterday at the mall, (btw, what am I doing at the mall with no money to spend?) walking around, checking out Christmas shoppers, I had this huge panic attack. What the heck was that about? Feeling guilty again? Or inferior? I just smiled, took a deeeep breath, and thought, What are you doing? So I proceeded to go into stores and pretended to be interested in buying the most expensive items they carried. Clothing, electronics, jewelry, trying stuff on, test driving laptops and smartphones whatever would make it seem like I was ready to buy. Kinda cruel to the poor salespeople who were waiting on me. My point is why should we pout about our personal situation when there's fantastically enjoyable things to do that don't cost a penny. I came home and had a good laugh. Now, that's the way to turn around a panic attack. Productivity can be FUN!
Lesson learned. If you let it, life can be one BIG stress fest. Be creative and take every opportunity to love life and laugh a little. It's good for the soul and changes your mood instantly. PEACE...
Resting in the Open Nature of Life
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